and wa as much as i tell myself daily to
“LEARN TO BE CONTENT!!!”
it never quite goes away, the conception of ‘success’ as having more, and more, and more, more achievement, more possession, even the careful disguise of ‘safety and security’ and the old adage about rainy days can become another endless climb for MORE SECURITY MORE SAVINGS FOR MORE MEDICAL EMERGENCIES AND
ya i can read 1000 verses about
“do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit”
“look at the flower in the field; their Heavenly Father clothes them, what more you?”
“i can be content in hunger”
but all that without Jesus is just good advice that can end up suffocating a person with the pressure of ‘right living’
i find myself most content when i am most prayerful – when, as with Proverbs 30 above, i cry out to God to say: change my heart.
help it be content.
help me not have more than i can handle.
help me to cease this constant self-absorption that will surely drive me to an inward ugliness if left unchecked.
give me neither riches nor poverty, but only my daily Bread – only You, Jesus – and all that i need to get by.
help me to be generous with all else that i own.
grant me the blessed self-forgetfulness that comes when i consider Jesus, who
though being in very nature God, did not consider Godhood something to be grasped, to be brandished about, but humbled Himself, even to the point of death.
so it was with Him, so may it be with me.